journey

This is a song i've heard lately, and it's been playing in my mind forever since.... "Journey"


It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you

习惯

来到这儿三个星期了。习惯，是很不要得的一件事；它会在你不知不觉的情况下融入你的生命中。

回想初来报到的时候，以直嫌说这里的食物好难吃；结果呢，吃多了也觉得没什么大不了的。抱怨说这个房间很小，可也还是住了下来。说很不喜欢上海人，说他们没礼貌，见多了也开始麻木了。遇到不顺眼的人，也渐渐习惯了他的存在。

习惯，可让你忘了当初做出决定的理由。习惯，是很难抽离得。

Kopitiam

Kopitiam is my favourite..
Not only the local sitcom but also the heritage.
The heritage of my grandfather's...

This was once my playground...
Help out as the cashier, running up and down the street,
Sitting in there, sipping my favourite iced-Milo
Looking at the same, old customers hanging around there having their favourite kopi, teh-O....

Time flies, there's more and more competitors on the street...
The old customers ceased of old age...

What will the future holds for this kopitiam, no one knows...

咖啡

喜欢咖啡,不是因为他的提神,而是因为他的苦涩和他的香味.喜欢喝咖啡时候的情调,那种幽雅,那种惬意,那种无奈,那种颓废.明白自己已经变得越来越颓废,当一个人的时候,在我脑子里盘旋的常常是宿命.为什么当一个人出生的时候,命运就伴随着他?不相信人的力量可以去改变命运的安排,他们所改变的只是自己的心情,而不是自己的命运.因为人在冥冥的现实和虚幻中是渺小的.常在咖啡的陪伴下想到爱情.爱情像咖啡.人世间并没有什么快乐的,幸福的,或者是永恒的爱情,就如同咖啡一样,原本是没有甜味的.人们喜欢的,崇尚的,只不过是苦涩中散发的甜味而已.像任何毒品一样,咖啡有瘾,但他不是毒品,是毒品的替代品,这就是为什么人们喜欢咖啡,会喜欢到底的缘故.

就像游曳在爱情的海洋中,越是困难就越是不低头,受过爱情的伤害,却仍然不放弃爱情,为什么?因为爱情像咖啡一样,有瘾.喜欢咖啡的颜色,如同喜欢爱情的颜色.他们都是暗暗的.没有什么明亮的爱情,因为时间和现实的冲刷,已经把他们的颜色都抹去了,留下的只有原色.因为他们本来就不是什么明亮的东西.没有纯粹的咖啡和爱情.咖啡如果没有伴侣或者方糖,就不会那么受欢迎.爱情如果没有欲望和经济就不会让那么多的人去追求,有时侯甚至是带着受伤和被伤害.但是,无可置疑,我离不开咖啡就像人类离不开爱情一样.咖啡能给我苦涩的回忆,能够让我的脑子存在于盲钝和自由的状态去思考宿命的安排.爱情能给人类带来肉体上的快感,心灵上的抚慰.我不相信爱情,但是我接受,就像接受咖啡一样,义无反顾.


作者： 唯琳

Lost

I am lost in my heart,
I am lost in the run,
I am lost in the world of maze.
Where can I find
The answers that I need,
Answers to the questions in my mind.
Where can I run?
Where can I hide,
when I need shelter from the storm.
When can I leave?
When will I be released,
from this hypocrite, surreal world.
I am tired and exhausted,
I've tried but I've failed
I cried but to no avail.
But I know there's someone
waiting,
longing,
for me to return to His kingdom.


Aileen Sew

Copyright ©2004 Aileen Sew

From A Distance

Looking at you from a distance
I know my heart is lost
Lost in the love for you
Which will never ever come true
Looking at you from a distance
I know that you're not mine
Not in the past nor in the future
Your heart never was for me.
When you're in front of me
I feel as if we're miles apart
When we're miles apart
I feel that you're so close
With just a single distance call.
So near yet so far
Is this what they call love?
I wish I'll have the courage
I wish I'll have the strength
To walk up to you
To tell you I really, really love you
Loving you, is what I feel for you



Aileen Sew

Copyright ©2004 Aileen Sew

Love You

Wide awake in the morning mist
My thought is filled with your presence
Feel like being by your side
To wish you morning
And tell you I love you
Sleeping alone in the lonely night
My heart is filled with your presence
Weeping quietly into the cold air
And wish you're still here
And tell you I miss you

I want to go away from this land
To where you are
But it is yet time for me
To go back to the sanctuary
So I can just remain here
Continue to love you and miss you
Till we meet again
In the sanctuary


Aileen Sew

Copyright ©2004 Aileen Sew

One Way, One Truth, One Life, One Destiny...

Today's a very special Sunday. It's a Youth Evangelistic Sunday!!!!

A team of missionaries came over from City Harvest Singapore to join us. After the praise & worship session, filled with joy, the team gave a short presentation (sorta sketch thingy) about the only way to salvation.



The award you get, the good deeds you do, your wealth, your wiseness.... All these doesn't bring you eternal life. The only way to salvation is through our Lord Jesus Christ whom paid for our sins with His blood.

This message was later on being bring forth by Ps Kenneth Sim.
It was well explained inthe Bible scripture Luke 16:19-31 where the rich man went to hell because he rejected Jesus, while the poor beggar Lazarus went up to heaven after he died because he belives in out Saviour!



The main point is not that rich/wealth will lead us to hell.... But the rejection of Jesus Christ that will lead us to eternal perish in hell.
I'd say the message today is very good.....

Bowling

After 'hibernating' for few days, lazy to go down all the way to KL to meet up with some friends.... I finally moved my butt! Just to give some face to the long-time-never-see-friend, Sadesh! Oh, just a brief intro.... He's one of my A-level classmate whom flee to Australis in the middle of the course for engineering!

He's back for the holidays, apparently. Anyway, he asked me to meet up once for Spiderman-2 with some other friends but... Haha, since i'm really is a lazy-bump & I was a little sick back then, I rejected his invitation. Anyway, since he's flying back to Aus this Saturday, Ok... just be nice for once... haha....

Woke up quite early today, which was quite miraculous for days like these.........
Went all the way down to KL with my sister (another miracle!!! Cos I don't normally take her when i'm out to meet my friends).
The few of us went for bowling in Ampang. Anyway, I suck in it... Anyhow, (i'm trying to convince myself....) my sister whom NEVER play bowling before scored higher than me due to beginner's luck..

Aih... never mind lah... Just remind myself not to ever go with amateur & beginners..Haha.... (then who should I go with? that's a good Q....)

Games..........?

I've been home the whole day. Apart from there, being a driver is the other activity i did.

Anyhow, tomorrow I'm suppose to lead games in cell group but.... I'm still lost of what games to play!

The last time I 'lead' any games was years back and..... Aih... I just don't know.... Puzzled... I thought it'll be quite easy when I said "ok" to Stacey...

Been asking friends for opinions & ideas for days yet I haven't decide what to play!

Brain-warming ice-breaker is easy.. Or I THINK it'll be easier (cos I like barin-puzzle ) but GAMES?! It should be FUN! And i don't think I can turn up with any....

Hope that God will warm up the atmosphere even if my games suck lah....